Macam Tin Kosong?

And she said...

"without him, feel so empty..

outside we look happy, but inside, mcm tin kosong.

eventhough ramai je kat skeliling, tp rasa cm sumthing is missing. its not dat the presence of ur frens is meaningless.. but a piece of ur heart is not wit u...sumthing like dat la".

I do know how it feels, and I don't get to judge you people.I've been there, done that, and perhaps it's not the same with what people around me are facing, but believe me, I know, I just know how it feels. I've been through that too, just have faith in what you're doing. Prayers and my best wishes are with you!xoxo


Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan.amin :)

OO MM GGG!
I've just read Leonard's blog! (Yep,he's The Lollipop-headed racist fella,Hema yang cakap :p) I need not to spread the news since he'll be gladly to announce it in his blog. But heyyy, read the next post. Dang! He kutuks me sesuke hati already @_@. Are you smarter than a 5th grader? Amboi! (Look at who's posting that!hahaha ;D )

http://leonardlsx.blogspot.com

SMILE by Uncle Cracker

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
Sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

P/s: Credit to Aisyah for her song recommendations! :)

Aiduladha 1430H

That I wish for today, right now :
- did better in this afternoon paper
- be home for raya with family

***

And as what we always heard, Aiduladha in Kelantan is just as meriah as Aidulfitri. Woken up by my dad, he wouldn't stop his attempts to make us get up from bed and help around.
Biasanya Abah akan beli seekor lembu, so nanti akan kongsi adik-beradik, baik dari sebelah Abah sendiri or sebelah Mama. By 8am, semua yang korban sama-sama akan datang, berkumpul kat rumah. It's somehow our big family gathering. Macam saaangat happening. Kereta penuh je depan rumah, and with kids running around, excitedly nak ikut pergi tempat korban sekali.
The male adults in our family akan melapah daging while the madams akan siap-siap untuk masak for lunch, makan ramai-ramai.

***

Haha. Itu sahaja, ayat pertama macam nak cerita panjang kan? Malaslah -_-"
Exam tadi sangaaat KO, belum sempat Mama tanya pasal paper tadi, terus confess, "susahlah Ma".

Raya macam tak lengkap kalau tak dengar takbir raya, bila dengar rasa sejuk je hati, syahdu sekejap...(HOHO)
Dan raya juga macam tak lengkap takde family disisi :(

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDULADHA
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN
:)

Bitter heart by Zee Avi

Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.


I love her voice and her music. She's just awesome! ;)


P/s : All the best InterMed '07!
My pray and wishes to all of us
:)

Food Craving -_-"

Can I blame the hormones for my BIG appetite (recently) ?

Tengah food craving dengan semua food yang terlintas di fikiran mahupun di mata. I ate like a pig these few days, main telan je semua benda.


me : Dear mouth, please stop allowing food from entering you!
Toothsie, stop chewing!
Esophagus darling, no more food swallowing okay?(tapi tak nak la kena
GERD..na'uzubillah)
Tummy, please stop getting larger!

Manglish?

I was checking my email just now and a friend was forwarding this :


British English vs. Malaysian English
 
Who says our English is teruk? Just read below - Ours is simple, short, concise, straight-to-the-point, effective etc.
 
1. WHEN GIVING A CUSTOMER BAD NEWS
Britons: I'm sorry, sir, but we don't seem to have the sweater you want in your size, but if you give me a moment, I can call the other outlets for you.
 
Malaysians: No stock.
 

2. RETURNING A CALL
Britons: Hello, this is John Smith. Did anyone call for me a few moments ago?
 
Malaysians: Hello, who call?
 

3. ASKING SOMEONE TO MAKE WAY
Britons: Excuse me, I would like to get by. Would you please make way?
 
Malaysians: S-kew me.
 

4. WHEN SOMEONE OFFERS TO PAY
Britons: Hey! Put your wallet away,this drink is on me.
 
Malaysians: No need lah.
 
 
5. WHEN ASKING FOR PERMISSION
Britons: Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to enter through this door?
 
Malaysians: (pointing at the door) Can ah?
 
 
6. WHEN ENTERTAINING
Britons: Please make yourself right at home.
  
Malaysians: No need shy shy one lah!
 
 
7. WHEN DOUBTING SOMEONE
Britons: I don't recall you giving me the money.
 
Malaysians: Where got?
 
 
8. WHEN DECLINING AN OFFER
Britons: I would prefer not to do that, if you don't mind.
 
Malaysians: Don't want lah.
 
 
9. IN DISAGREEING ON A TOPIC OF DISCUSSION
Britons: Err...Tom, I have to stop you there. I understand where you're coming from, but I really have to disagree with what you said about the issue.
 
Malaysians: You mad ah?
 
10. WHEN ASKING SOMEONE TO LOWER THEIR VOICE.
Britons: Excuse me,but could you please lower your voice? I'm trying to concentrate over here.
 
Malaysians: Shut up lah!
 
 
11. WHEN ASKING SOMEONE IF HE/SHE KNOWS YOU..
Britons: Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me for sometime. Do I know you?
 
Malaysians: See what, see what?
  
 
12. WHEN ASSESSING A TIGHT SITUATION.
Britons: We seem to be in a bit of a predicament at the moment..
 
Malaysians: Die lah!!
 
 
13. WHEN TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED
Britons: Will someone tell me what has just happened?  
 
Malaysians: What happened ah? Why like that one lah?
 
 
14. WHEN SOMEONE DID SOMETHING WRONG
Britons: This isn't the way to do it. Here, let me show you.
  
Malaysians: Like that also don't know how to do!
 
 
15. WHEN ONE IS ANGRY
Britons: Would you mind not disturbing me?
 
Malaysians: Celaka you!
 

Jogja has been surrounded by dampness lately. WEW. Somehow, I miss the brightness of miss sunshine (nak basuh baju yang dah lama terkumpul dalam bakul tu T_T)

Ammai's birthday was on the ninth of this month. My mom were telling how Fawwaz was so excited when they bought the birthday cake. And of course how chaotic Ammai and Fawwaz when they claimed that the cake was theirs. *I can imagine. Mesti Ammai sakat dia habis-habis. Haha*

Result UPSR akan keluar this thursday! HAHA. I can't predict how many A's Ammai will get since the last time we ever talked about his UPSR exam was about his tricks to cheat in exam, tiru kawan sebelah. Ishhh. Budak2 zaman sekarang ni. When I displayed my shockness he was like, "Takpe, cikgu pun suruh kitorang meniru budak-budak yang pandai". OKAAAAAY. Terima kasih cikgu. Anda sangat membantu! -.-"

What I actually try to convey in this post is : RINDU NAK BALIKKKK!

You gave me wonders,
By being a good listener,
Shoving away the gloom,
You make my heart bloom.


:)

Pleasant Guilt

Guilty or Happy?

Jumping high, up to the sky
She's smiling over her cry,
Stomping on her heart
There's no proud.

She's going to be crowned after,
Nothing to be thanked for
How can she move forward?
Without feeling awkward?

Who's to blame?
For this flame?
Oh, this is lame!
'Coz she's no fame.


FarhanaJoni, Oct 28, 2009 1651

Letters

To a girl-youknowwhoyouare-

I was opening up my diary and I found these letters you gave to me. We used to give letters to each other and pretend as if nothing happen, remember? Sometimes it's hard to utter those words yet we can simply wrote it down. And yeah, I still keep those letters you gave, letters about friendship, love, appreciation and forgiveness. How sweet :)

Jan 10, 2008. New Year, New History.
"You are really is the best partner for shopping, window shopping, TV watching, serious talking, stupid-talking, heart-pouring, tea and coffee dining and instant-deciding thingy.."

March 24, 2009. Shopaholic.
".. when you are more than one who stays there through all my flaws and feebleness.."
"..Through all our ups and downs, clouds and storms, loving or hating, those what make the two of us even.."



p/s : I want you to know how much I treasure having you with me :) ILU

"You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep"


-Catch Me by Demi Lovato-

:)

LU Ammai :)

Read Ain's blog, and i saw a picture of his brother. Somehow it reminds me of my own...

Ammar Faiz.

He's the coolest little brother and i'm the coolest sister ;). That's why he's very close to me than the others. Well, when I was at home, minta je apa-apa ngan dia,mesti dia kasi punye! We have the same taste in fashion too I guess because he seems to like everything I have, my ring, my watch, my sweater. Ahaha. Guess he just simply adore me as the oldest child in the family *awww*. When it comes to buy stuff, he would seek for my opinion. And boy, how he grown up that fast, wanting all the branded stuff - Levi's jean, Jefferson's tees , perfumes...bla3.[pengaruh rakan sebaya yang kaya kot.huhu]. He even taught me some futsal tricks! We went for bowling my my female friends, and yet, he knows how to mingle with us. He's an awesome bro!

The other day, Lala told me : ade sorang mak cik ni tanya, "kakak sulong dah kahwin ke?". And Ammar didn't like the idea of me having a family of my own. Maybe sebab he was afraid that he might lose me or I won't be the same coolest sister :).

Do not worry dear brother,
you'll always have me beside you.
I promise you that.
ILU.

P/s : mengingatkan what happened yesterday, I just can't stop smiling :) :) :)

Freak Out!

Tak tahu la kenapa. Tapi tetap rasa nak freak out jugak. Rasa seram-seram sejuk jek. Dan dengan menyedari banyak kerja menanti, saya tetap meng'google' gambar-gambar ini :

*dumb*


*cool*




saving the best for the last...


*who can compete with this freaking-out makcik?*

teehee ;p

Taken

It's about a father who's trying to save her daughter from women-trafficking (sindiket menukarkan anak orang jadi anak ayam). I'm gonna give this movie 2 thumbs-up! and a 4-5 stars rating!

*don't ever mess with this dude...or his daughter*

Two movie's reviews in a row! Haha,guess that's the proof of ending Block 3.1 :p

Double Ugly Truth

Truly, I wasn't really into The Ugly Truth movie just now. Maybe my expectation is much higher. Don't get me wrong, I love both Katherine Heigl and Gerard Butler. She impressed me with her gorgeous barbie-look and her acting as Izzie Stevens in Grey's Anatomy. And oh,Gerard! (or should i called him Gerry) who played as a loving husband in PS : I Love You. He's waaaay too cool in that movie though he's just a dead guy.
Spending Rp.20k maybe wasn't that worth it, it's just ok-ok for me. But then, maybe it was just because i'm not in the mood for a movie. Maybe.




*My movies recommendation : The Kite Runner, Slumdog Millionaire, August Rush, dan banyaaaak lagi kot. Leave a comment and tell me yours plak okay? Good Night :)

The Ugly Truth

hahaha. Been looking forward to watch this movie :)

TONIGHTTTT! *yippie!*

+ exam da habes
+ Biostat 6 belom start lagi
+ plan nak pegi for a short trip :>
+ nak pinjam novel ain!!!! (ok ain?)


Itu sahaja pesanan penaja,sekian,terima kasih.

Hocus Focus!

*puff*

Nothing happen.

Hocus Focus!
*puff*

Nada.

I've been trying to give my hundred percent focus to prepare for this block exam. However, there's lot of things that play in my mind right now and i couldn't stop myself from thinking and pondering over unnecessary matters. What matter the most right now is this FRIDAY. BLOCK EXAM. And you know what? I've just realized that today,TODAY is TUESDAY already. So far i haven't reach even half of the lecture notes.

DANG!

"Life is not measured by
the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments
that take our breath away."


how...meaningful :)

heehik ;)

oh..oh..*melting*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BukzDp8n-V0&feature=player_embedded#


i always love the sound of acoustic guitar, okay?

*melting lagi*

and now i can't stop myself from opening a new tab of his video.lol
*exam..exam..*

Best Buddy :)

The damp cloudy wheather we're having in Jogja for these past few days just increases the probability for my sleeping time to be doubled. I have to fight the urge to crawl to my bed and hide under the comforter. bestnyee...ish ish! EXAM EXAM! *sigh*

Just opened Iz's blog and read her posts. Then i looked up for my blog because she once said that she linked mine to hers. "Best Buddy". I grinned sheepishly(xde la malu sangat pon) in front of my lappy. awww. That's just so sweet :)

Thanks.

Paranoia

An empty street lay upfront,
cycling alone to reach home,
I saw an old man was cycling too,
very very slow..

*Paranoid*

Maybe because he was just plain old,
Somehow I turned back, twice

*Paranoid*

Afraid of being followed
by some random people (it truely happened once)
or just some sick-minded 'flashers'

*Paranoid*

Opening the gate,
I turned my head back,
dextra et sinistra,
making sure there's no 'flash surprises'

And that's the end of the paranoia..


p/s: i'm living with no regrets.Learn from my mistakes and keep trying to improve.Be a better (hu)man! heh ;)

Amr Diab

'We Malo' by Amr Diab

Part 1:

و مالو لو ليلة تهنا بعيد...

We malo law leila tohna baeed...

So what if we got lost one night...

و سبنا كل الناس

We sebna kol el nas?

And left everyone behind?

أنا يا حبيبي حاسس بحب جديد...

Ana, ya habibi, hassis be hob gideed.

My darling, I feel a new love.

ماليني ده الإحساس

Malini dah el ihsas.

You have filled me with this feeling.

و انا هنا جنبي أغلي الناس...

We ana hinna ganbi aghla el nas.

And here, I am beside the most precious person.

أنا جنبي أحلي الناس

Ana ganbi ahla el nas.

I am beside the most beautiful person.

(Repeat Part 1)

Chorus 1:

حبيبي ليلة تعالي ننسي فيها اللي راح

Habibi leilah taala ninsa feeha elli rah.

Darling, tonight, let us forget all that is past.

تعالي جوة حضني و ارتاح

Taalla gowa hodni we irtah.

Stay in my embrace and relax.

دي ليلة تسوي كل الحياة

De leilah tiswa kol el haya.

This night is worth the rest of my life.

Chorus 2:

مالي غيرك و لولا حبك حعيش لمين

Mali gheirak we lola hobak haeesh le meen?

There is nobody else for me but you and without you, I would have no reason to live.

حبيبي جاية أجمل سنين

Habibi gaya agmal sineen.

Darling, the best years are coming.

و كل ماده تحلي الحياة

We kol mada tihla el haya.

And every day, life will get better.

Part 2:

حبيبي ألمس إيديا...

Habibi, ilmis eidaya...

Darling, touch my hand...

عشان أصدق اللي أنا فيه

Ashan asadaq elli ana feeh.

So that I may believe what is going on.

ياما كان نفسي أقابلك بقالي زمان...

Yama kan nifsi aqablak baqali zaman.

For so long I had wished to meet you.

خلاص وهحلم ليه؟

Khalas we hahlam leih?

And now, there is no need to dream.

مانا هنا جنبي أغلي الناس...

Mana ana hinna ganbi aghla el nas.

I am already here, beside the most precious person.

أنا جنبي أحلي الناس

Ana ganbi ahla el nas.

I am beside the most beautiful person.



I think this is the 2nd song of Amr diab that i could play over and over again.Thanks to my sis for introducing this song. Besides We Malo, Tamaally Maak is one of his great songs ;)

Let's talk biostatic language!

Honestly, i just can't wait to end this hectic block! Though we're now in this Holy month of the year, still our schedule is so packed that my classes only ended after 2pm (especially this week)! We need to make appoinments with our research method's doctor and our presentation's doctors at their convenience.

Yesterday was my clinically simulated problem session. I was not that well prepared, and with my change of voice recently, it just worsened the condition. At the end of the session, suddenly the doctor brought up the Indo-Malay issue. See, even orang bijak pandai dan berilmu tinggi pon boleh berfikiran tertutup, let alone the others.

Biostatistics is filling my mind that i think i might explode soon. Mind-blowing! But then, we're going back for Raya this week!!!! So I guess I can endure with it for this time being.

as for my beloved Intermed '07,
happy holiday

selamat hari raya
maaf zahir batin :)

p/s : my 'dragon' voice seems getting better. hooray!

Going 3rd!

seeing those 1st year juniors filling the inter building,
makes me realize that i'm now a 3rd year student,
a 3rd year senior.

:)

Empty

laugh all you can
but you still feel empty inside

put that fake smile
but still,there are dark,cloudy thoughts in mind

i know, i know
just be tough, stay strong.



HE'll always be with you,
along the way :)

Goodbye-s

I'm not a big fan of saying goodbyes, i'm more of a hello person.

I never thought u could just walk away and never look back to me.
A friend don't just walk out of their friends' life,
at least not on just a sepele reason.

I hated myself for a moment,
thinking that i'm such a jerky friend,
but when i think about it,
it's not a big deal.

I called, but u never picked up
I sms-ed,but u didn't reply
I've apologized,countlessly...

Well.at least I've done my part.
I've tried,
That's it!
I'm done!

If i can bury my past,i would have done it.

p/s: I'm full of anger and hatred that i feel bitter at this moment. Still, I manage to smile. But then,all i want to do right now is just run as far as i can,scream as loud as i want.

-.-"

I longed for the glorious moment of my life (haha - maybe wayyy back at M'sia)


but

somehow i miss that bitter,hateful time too

guess i'm not ready to give up things yet...

Dia datang lagi :)

Here it comes..
Ramadhan al-Mubarak
selamat berpuasa!

How i wish we have a pasar ramadhan in Jogja...very very very much *sigh*

Brand New

So, my last writing was before i went back to Malaysia and now it's been a week since i came back to Jogja. No internet connection. That's the reason.

Time crawled so slow when i was back home till a week before my flight to Jogja, then it seemed like the acceleration is so fast that all i wanted to do was just to curl up in my bed at home. Spending every possible minute with my family.

I totally abandoned and ignored my cell phone at home. All I did is just play all day long with my little youngest brother Fawwaz.

Things i've been doing at home, briefly:

- woken up by Fawwaz because he wanted me to play the dikir barat cd which my dad bought at pasar malam. But it's okay, since i get 3morning kisses. wahahaha


- stayed up late at nights; watch tv series, novel reading

- try to stay at home as much as possible since most of my buddies are not in KB


- went for a bowling with Ammar, Miss Die and her friends


- went to my aunties houses


- taught by my brother on his trick to kick a ball


- thrown a bunch of keys at my face. Fawwaz did it out of sudden. grrr. I actually felt as if my nose is broken, but it's not. But hey, it's bleed. huhu :'(


- went to KL with my mom, my sis Yaya and Fawwaz for a shop!


- and i tried as much as i can to...avoid thinking. haha



At the end of the holiday...


- I have a new cousin

- Fawwaz missed me since there's no one to play the dikir barat cd anymore. poor him. but no worries, i'll be back again, SOON!

- i have two broken relationships, which i want to stop thinking and pondering over about it. Sam was right i should just get over it. I still have her, and LOTS of other people with me.


I can hardly share with people about my emotions, what i feel down under. And perhaps i was right. Because when you trust someone and you open up to them, then the next day they turn their back and just walk away, that is such a big dissappointment.

I want to click the refresh button. A new sem, new block, new spirit(hoho), plus with a new haircut, i would like to start over.

Live and learn.

A brand new me! :)

Goodnight and Goodbye

Tonight, i'll be wishing goodnight to Jogja...

Tomorrow, i'll be saying goodbye to Jogja...

and by noon tomorrow, I'll be shouting Hello Malaysia! :)

hope everything goes well ---> meaning no excess luggage!or i'll be dead!

-broke and beautifool-

The END!

I was one of the first session student for the first day of OSCE (today). You can imagine the panic atmosphere surrounding the whole Radioputro Building. It was like entering a dark and gloomy area, with dark spirits all over the place. Ok,Ok. Exaggerating, I know. But that's how I felt the first time I reached there this morning.

All you can do was praying and keep praying, hoping that you can perform well, wishing that you can persuade the Doctors with your dashing smile and (vulnerable) confidence. hehe :)

Though I'm not fully pepared for this OSCE as compared to last year, but the confidence that start to bloom inside of me keep myself calm, preventing me from becoming overly hysterical and go blank whenever the Doctor asked questions or comments on my performance.

So that's it. I made it! :)

(though there's lackings here and there in my skill performance)

Now, all I want to do is sit back and relax, finish the novel I borrowed from Aisyah, berkampung di depan TV and pack my luggage! Yeay!

I'll be arriving Malaysia in less than 48hours! O yes!

Our Last Chapter of this 2nd Year

The mood for holiday has overshadowed my worries for our OSCE which is on the next Thursday and Friday.yaiks! Sedar tak sedar tinggal less than a week before OSCE. I went out everyday since the last three days, and there's no exception for today.

-Done with my shopping list. So far...
-Transformer : Revenge of the Fallen? DONE!

but not my preparation for the big day??*sigh*

This is it. This OSCE will be the witness of our second year as a medical student.

Okay, I better start now.

Just can't wait to get back home! ;)

Let's Keep On Praying

There goes all the cuakness and my berdebar-debar towards exam. Everything that happened recently are SERIOUSLY are getting on my nerve. waaarrghhh. The last-minute change of exam day, the KITAS thing, and MAGANG. All of these happen in this time, the peak of the block time, the EXAM time. *duh*

All the best goes to InterMed '07, for everything

May Allah bless and ease our path...

Ganbate ne!

Jiayou!

:)

Abah ;)

A wise man who is never afraid of anything.

He once said "kalau nak pilih kerjaya, pilih sesuatu yang boleh menyumbang kepada orang lain, boleh tolong orang lain".

Though he's not type who would express his love with words, but we know how much you love us.

Abah, you're great in your own way.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! :)

Blow Your Candles!

He greeted me in YM, menuntut a birthday wish. Hahaha. Lucu! I didn't expect you to ask for my wish, hehe :p . And plus, I didn't think you have ever mentioned your birthday to me(I think so..).OK, i'll put it in my reminder from now on.

He was someone I knew during my after-SPM-English classes at Cambridge Language Centre(CLC). We only met for several times because his schedule was different than mine. But still, we contact each other every now and then.


Things about you, encik Bob :

-I despise and loathe you the first time we met. You were teasing the girl in our class in a such a sarcastic way. Eh no! You actually were making fun of her. Kesian budak tu.
-I'd rather like if you ask for my number from me, dan bukannya ambik from budak lain. -.-
-You didn't tell me your real name, but I once accidentally saw your card. Hahaha. Padan muka!
-You would puff away then appear in my life back, just like that, as you pleased >:p. Grrr.
-You deleted my YM twice(yep. TWICE!) then added me back. Jahaaaat.
-But then, beside all the 'sengal'ness, insanity, lies, sarcastism, irrespectful and your 'ngokngek'ness, amazingly you are a good listener and i can say a good advisor too. It's pretty amazing that you can utter such witty words and gave me a new perspective of the real world. Tapi, ko memang sengal tahap cipan. Hoho.



Thanks Bob ;) You're such a GREAT friend. Jangan lupa hadiah operate untuk aku nanti ;p
As you've promised! Wakakaka.

A great birthday goes to you. May ALLAH ease your journey of life.

p/s: I posted this because I know you don't even know if I have a blog ;p

*Hoppipolla and Good Feelings songs feel the air...lalala*

PA..

That pic? Oh,it's just something that i found when i randomly click its link.

i FAILed PA(pathological anatomy) exam for block 2.5,

and i couldn't see my last block exam result. T_T

ughh.

iwillNEVERlikePA!

STUDY! jiayou!

EXAMSSSS

so much too write yet so little time i have, plus these digits are just too lazy to write things down. I wish there were some machine that can just translate my speech into writings ;p

"Life is like a path we walk down. We know too much of the destination, but too little of the journey"

p/s : in my e.x.a.m mode.(Block 2.6 exam, remedial + OSCE)
happy studying people!

Latest Addiction

YES!I am a coffee lover. Unfortunately i can't consume it that often, since even a small amount of caffein would ruin my day. I'd be having palpitation, my heart beat would go so fast as if it was a race, sleepless night and a pounding headache.

But the bittersweet taste and aroma of coffee is just irresistable!hehe. So I went to Bengawan Solo Coffee for four days in a row! Simply looooove it! I've tried Passion Orange(a new taste for the coffee lover!), Hazelnut Latte, The Ultimate and Cookies and Coffee.

Featuring: The Ultimate, Cookies and Coffee, Brandy Cookies(O% alcohol) and The Ultimate again :)

Plus, the nicely decorated cafe is such home-y. Rasa tak nak balik bile pegi sana :p

teeheeheehee ;)

i.hate.this

9.53pm,sat,13june2009

Why do we have to think of upsetting stuff in the midst of exam-is-just-around-the-corner mode? They were being forgotten and ignored, with the busyness around. (as if I’m THAT busy)

Why tears show themselves now? Oh, how I miss Pobabes’ rooftop where I would hide those watery eyes and reddening nose of mine. The place I would go when I need to click the refresh button to my life. It’s hard to keep things to yourself, because you’ll feel like exploding.

O Allah, heal the wound. Take me away from sorrow...

You’re everything I have, the Only One I can hope and ask for anything. Let me be stronger and stronger each day.AMIN.

Jakarta, Here I Come!

wew. am heading to Jakarta tomorrow, though i'm still not sure what do i have to do, where to go once reaching the airport. Everything was so out-of-sudden-kind of plan. I was extremely excited the other day, but now, i'm just a little bit scared of tomorrow.

A journey to Jakarta alone...I just can't imagine, and it IS happening tomorrow. Wait, did i say TOMORROW? oh..oh..

Well, all i hope is for my safety throughout the journey. Pergi dan balik dengan selamat ke Jogja. Amin ;)

p/s: can't wait to see mama, abah and Fawwaz!!!

A Silent Treatment

yea yea...whatever. Sometimes things are just not the way you want it to be. Babbling about it would be too noisy. So, a silent treatment would do some good perhaps?

p/s: my heart is harder than a stone, mind you. If this is the game, let's play for some time then, till all the players get tired of it. :p

Aha! So It Is...

Things just not the same as it is. Not like before. No more fun, nor laugh. Why things should change in the first place? Kan best if we just stay still at the cheerful moments? Nothing to worry about and everything can be taken lightly, though they'll never know if it hurts.

I'll laugh it off, but now that same laughter just can't show itself anymore, segan kot tiba2. ahaha

P/s : layan je la. saya tengah nak merepek dan malas nak buat tutorial ni...Ngehehe ;p

Glory Glory Tiger Lily ;)

We won at last, the taste of a juicy victory is so sweet when u thirst for it for such a long time. Congratulation girls! We made it :)

I was so happy that i nearly cried right after Yon kicked the ball into the goal ;'). Happy and thankful right now, bahagia seketika, though i feel like a geriatric for now(back pain, sakit pinggang, hamstring muscle overstretched, bla3).

Winning against our senior batch is what we dreamt of, since our first year here. hehe :D
Still have one more game. Wish us luck! :)

Sweet Teeth ;)

After about a year, akhirnya... Dini treats me, as what she promised last year. went to Rumah Cokelat this noon and i believed we're the first customer since it only opens at 12noon, ehehe ;]

This morning we were having a 'Klinik Sabtu Sehat'. a group of senior citizen from Ngadiwinatan came to our Med Faculty for a light aerobic and a free medical check-up from us(monitored by the Doctors of course). my patient was this cute little 79 years-old man, Pak Darmowiyoto. hehe. i think he reminds me a lot of my late greatgrandpa. he was such a quite, but kind-hearted and always generous with his smile :'). things went well with the anamnesis part, but i think i need more practices on the skill part. i should take a pic with him...hmmm...

Straight away after the programme, Hanim and me went to Pondok Cabe. Lapar laa. They didn't supply us food or even just a light snack. haish. then, we went to Rumah Cokelat with Dini and Dina. Thanks Din(s) ;)

Oh yea... Special thanks to Pqah, Yon and Hanim for their birthday presents. terima kasih korang ;)

a lovely bracelet from Pqah and Yon + a cute heart from Hanim ;)

Extremely exhausting day! wew, I guess it's time to day goodnight. sweet dream people! :)

Miss him, miss her, miss them

Sometimes you feel out of place, where everything seems to be unfamiliar to you, and all you want to do is just get out of that. perhaps, i'm the one who thinks like that. whenever i feel down, the only place that came in my mind was HOME :).

I'm not a person that speak my mind out loud, that bust my anger to people around, that share my sorrow with people, even with my closed friends. spreading my happiness would be easy, but opening my heart to people is damn hard. maybe because I'm being overprotective on my own feelings.

My eyes blurred, tears accumulated in my lower palpebra the moment i watched videos of my family. Miss Abah, miss Mama, miss Yaya, Lala, Kakak, Amai and little Fawwaz. I miss being pampered by Abah, i miss being Mama's driver, I miss hanging out with Yaya, I miss picking up Lala, Kakak and Amai from their schools, I miss babysitting Fawwaz. I miss their laughters, I miss those fights they had, I even miss their shouting voices, arguing about small matters, this and that. I would just simply listen to that and smile about it, simply enjoying that as if it was some kind of entertaining music to my ears(felt like a lunatic for a second). everyday is not complete without that ;')

pic taken during Raya 2008

And I know they miss me too. Everyone is at home now, except me. rasa nak balik sekarang jugak!huhu :(

Sangam's

Ever heard of Breakfast At Tiffany's?Well, this is Lunch At Sangam's. haha. a newly opened Indian-food restaurant owned by a French guy. went there just now with Hanim. we had chicken curry with organic plain rice and Kulfi as a dessert.

Kulfi : a small pot of indian milk ice-cream with pistachio and almond.

The food was superb, especially because we went there with an empty stomach. hehe. the environment is amazing, it is beautifully decorated with vibrant colours and some Indian deco. Indian songs filled the air, though a prefer if they would just play a soothing music instead.

chewing the free-given hors d'oeuvre : keropok (don't know its name. teehee ;p)

P.I.S.S.E.D

Gossip. Rumours. They are entertaining, only when you know you can handle it. just like a fire spark. I don't mind if only my closed friends knew about it, they teased me, and i can laugh it off. no heart feelings. but now, the thing is this gossip suddenly spread (gosh i don't know from who and to whom it has spread at this time being). damn.
I never thought it could affect me in such a greater way. well, never meant to spread it all around. OK, my head start to pound, arghhh headache.
Slept with a heavy head last night. and i need to catch some sleep before the sun shows herself today.

7am class again? yeah,you bet.;(

What goes around comes around

Been listening to joshua radin, ingrid michaelson and indie arie. love their songs and soothing voices ;)
Today is our first day of new block(yep, no holidays after last block exam, as always, sigh). it just felt awkward for a while, can't erase the bad memory i had on the previous occasion i guess. Monday blues...worsen by the too early introduction lecture at 7am. huh.
Got a new name ; miss kedekut, by my group mate. sheesh. I've been bullied by him and his gossiper friend which happened to be my batch mate. as i can recalled, i was the one who start to tease him around, but then, now they are turning the tables and I'm the one who've been bullied. duh.
I'm supposed to write a work plan for tomorrow's skill lab session tonight, but then since we haven't received the material for tomorrow, no work plan! yeah! boleh qada' tidur setelah semalam berjaga untuk membuat laporan. but I'm thinking of continue my half-read novel, Tuesdays with Morrie. I've been postponing it for about 2months.
ok la.night night :)

The Big 21 ;)

yup, yesterday was my birthday...and our first paper of Block 2.5 exam. i was confused, whether to feel blessed or mourned upon those. the excitement for the fact that it's my birthday and the overwhelming disappointment because i hadn't prepared well for the exam mixed. my hands were actually sweating and trembling during the exam. duh. nasi da jadi bubur,no turning back nor regrets. T_T
but then the lunch treat by a batchmate did shove the awful feelings about the exam (hehe,terima kasih boss!). it was at Waroeng Jogja, as all i had in my mind that time is nasi!nasi! and the idea of having prawns as my lunch treat was so appealing. thw lunch went so well(and how can it not be?makan gurame bakar yang bestttt!),till when we were finishing (here come the most interesting part...),suddenly they were splashing plain water on me!ces,kurang ajar!hahaha...a special thanks goes to them though.Yon,terima kasih bebanyak ;p.

another surprised celebration attented by my girls on that night. i wasn't expecting they would celebrate it on the same day as our lives in a little bit of chaos and mess, due to exam week.thanks again,i had a blast day that i seemed to be amnesiac obout the morning paper. :D

called my mom that night,and the whole family were singing a birthday song.and fawwaz's cry as the background song.haha.i miss u guys!can't wait to go back home!Fawwaz!i....u!

may all my dreams and hopes come true. may things get better as the time goes by. may all these hard times will lead to a greater ease.i want my parents to be proud of me.i want to be a great person,a great doctor in the future,insyaAllah.amin...

may HE blesses all my loved ones and showers us with love,joy,success,prosperous and happiness,fiddunia wal akhiroh :)