Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now

It's not over yet.

I feel disappointed. With my unpreparedness, but most of all, woth the exam questions. Soalan macam haram tak berkualiti. Susah-susah hafal all those drugs, mechanism etc., alih-alih keluar soalan tak penting.

I always listen to Mr.D lamenting about his mistakes in answering exam paper, but in the end, he was the one with flying colours. But I know very well that he deserved that. So much for effort that he put for exam.

Masih ada baaaaanyak lagi exam yang menunggu. I wish it's gonna be nice and smooth.

OSCE = nightmares!

p/s : sekarang rasa sangat kerdil. sangat tak suka dengan perasaan ini :/

Hey there!

Happy Birthday!

p/s : Shhh...It'll be our top secret. I promise! Who else I'm gonna tell right? :)

We used to walk to campus during our first and second year. Then when Hanim bought her bike, she's been giving me ride ever since. No more morning sweats, no more panicking when I woke up late, no more rush (though actually when we walked we often arrived earlier at campus). I miss walking. I miss being dependent only on myself. Being attached and cling to other people around make me feel weak. At times, it seems as if I was just taking advantages on them.

So I walked to Rumah Coklat, alone. And I walked to campus for TFSS yesterday, by myself. I know, if I called Mr. D yesterday he would have come and pick me up at home.
It's just that I need to know that whenever I don't have people around me, I won't be that much helpless. I need to stand on my feet. I need to feel that I'm still capable of doing things on my own. I used to be that strong girl. I used to.

*browsing pictures of vespa*

...like seriously

Sometimes we didn't ask about something because we hate to be seen as a moron.
" Soalan senang pun nak tanya" kan?

But at times, we didn't ask because we're afraid of what would be the answer. I'm afraid of knowing, and I'm not ready to listen to things I wish I won't hear. So I waited. Patiently.

The same thing happened sometimes when I was in the middle of a battle:

I, vs. my ego mind.

I was afraid of fighting because I was afraid of losing.
I know I couldn't bear any lost. So I waited. If I knew I would be defeated, then the best thing to do is to leave. Mengaku kalah sebelum bertanding.

ROAR!

Cis! Takde makna betul -_-" Takde semangat kental langsung. Baru kena jentik sikit dah nak terpelanting.

Be strong baby be strong ;)

What's down?

Kadang-kadang kita kena rasa perasaan orang yang berada di bawah. Kalah tak bererti hina dan keji. Dah memang adat.

Agak terkilan dengan kekalahan futsal tadi, tapi bukan sebab kecewa dengan teammates, atau tak puas hati dengan pihak lawan, tapi mungkin sebab selalu berada di atas, kita lupa nak jenguk ke bawah. Takpe, sekali-sekala kalah pun cool jugak kan? ;)

CHEERS!

Inferior

At times, when you compared yourself to others, especially to girls with such perfections ; Beauty, brainiac and bright, you'll keep on searching for their lackings, there must be any, somewhere. But only to realised that you were way behind them. Dream on. You might never be in their league.

I believe that people are born with their own special talent. Look for that. Look into yourself. Deep down, you're special. Maybe not to everyone, but to those who see you they way others don't. Cheers babyyy!

"We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see
In anyone else but you"

-Anyone else but you by The Moldy Peaches-