Dokter Muda

That's the title from now on :)



My first department is Dermatology & Venerealogy, and alhamdulillah, so far, ni lah stase yang paling santai daripada stase-stase lain. No on-call, no jaga (yet), working only at office hours (7/8am till 12pm, sometimes up to 3pm, depends if we have to attend the case reports or presentations by the DV residents).

First week
was a total suffer! I went early for work, hoping that I can go home early too. For the first 3 days, the only place we hang out is in campus, Gedung Radiopoetro lantai 3. Had to attend lectures ( tentiran), case reports, clinical pathology reports, grand round (which is basically more or less the same with case reports, journal presentations etc. And oh my! Borrring okay!

It felt good to be at campus again, tapi lama-lama rasa macam we don't belong there anymore. Takde muka-muka yang kita kenal tsk tsk T_T

The next 3 days, we were placed in poliklinik at Sardjito Hospital, hoping that we would get an interesting cases to be reported to our teaching specialists later. Tapi hampeh! The only thing we did was standing like a tunggul kayu, uncomfortably. Kita tak selesa, the residents tak selesa, patients pun tak selesa. Lagi ramai doktor dari pesakit. As I recalled, my Indonesian friend said, "Baru rasa jadi yang namanya koas, kerjanya cuma nganggur".

Second week
My group of three are sent to Klaten. Kat sini baru rasa best sikit. The nurses are very kind, siap bagi kitorang interview patients lagi. Resident DV pun baik. Bagi can dekat adik-adik koas buat anamnesis, ajar dan explain about the diseases in DV. At least pergi jauh-juah bukan tanam anggur semata-mata.

And when patients refer to you as 'doctor', that felt very very good :)
Rasa macam we meant something to them.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah :')
For every achievement up to this day

Walaupun tak sehebat orang yang dapat cumlaude, tak se'terrer' orang yang selalu dapat A, tak sebagus orang yang selalu pass OSCE. Susah-susah dahulu, baru boleh bersenang-senang kan? Alhamdulillah, dah dapat yudisium (pass semua block sebelum nak grad). Walaupun pernah dapat D dulu, dua kali ambil remedials baru dapat naik. Walaupun tiap-tiap tahun OSCE mesti ada yang sangkut, alhamdulillah untuk OSCE Compre, lulus.

Tapi sekarang rasa macam takut, say, nanti kena first wave, then what?

I pray the best
the best for me
the best for us
the best for everyone.

Women!

I don't mean to throw this at you..But what a woman wants? I mean, I can't figure it out. They want us to ask? They don't want us to ask? They want us to make a move? Not make a move? Use hair products? Don't use hair products? What do you people want?
I'll tell you. But you have to promise not to say I told you.
I swear.
Because it it a sacred secret.
Sacred secret. *nodding*
You ready?
Yeah.
Are you sure?
I think so.
Ok. Come here. *whispering* We have absolutely no idea what we want.
I knew it! I knew it!

- dialogue in P.S. I Love You -

Eat Pray Love

Wish I had list of things to do so I won't feel this much boring! Having tasks to complete is such a bless because at least we feel as if we are needed, and we have target day by day. My days now are aimless that I helplessly NEED to find something to do just to kill my time, which at one point I feel much regret upon staying longer here. Sigh. I know, it's not helpful to feel regret at this point. I was the I who decide that I want to stay longer, to manage our 'wisuda' leisurely, with no pressure, no rush( like how I did to my seminar hasil, pendadaran and preparation for '07 Masquerade Night).

I was at the urge of deciding to go to Bandung by myself two days ago, but then money issue strikes and gives me a big slap on that thoughts. Sigh. And I was brought back to reality in an instant. Yes, again, all I can do is sighing. Pffft.

If only I had a lum sum of money in my bank account now, I would pack my back at this moment, and go for a bagpack-travel, perhaps to Karimun Jawa or maybe to Bali. My cousins were there yesterday by the way. Up till this second, I'm still imagining myself backpacking to Karimun Jawa. That's the third sigh!



Oh, I bought this book, Eat Pray Love, with the hope of that I won't feel bored if I were to just sit at home. I flipped through few pages for about 30 minutes and here I am in front of my laptop. I have to admit that I am not a home-y type, who can just sit at home, clean up the room, do the laundry, read novels or magazines, settle in front of TV and take a light nap at noon. That is just not me! Unless if we have a cable TV right here in Jogja, then I would go for settling in front of TV, minus all the other parts. Heh.

So after all these craps I wrote of what I called as my silent tantrum, I am sitting in my room, typing these sentences. And back to reality, once again. LAME. Zzzz

Too much stress

Being the first to be done with OSCE is such a bliss, but then that mean you have to go first. Sejak first year selalu kena on the first day, and first session for the second, third and this coming OSCE compre.

Tak nak mengeluh. Tapi letih bila dengar orang yang next session cakap takde semangat. Try to be in the first session. Then you can mengeluh sepuas-puasnya.

I try to keep my spirit high, but to listen to such toneless spirit of yours, it pulled my spirit down too :(

So, I shouted out loud, "SEMANGAT! SEMANGAT!" in my effort to prevent my spirit drained away. I need people to cheer me up too, bukan hanya sekadar mengeluh terus.

All the best people!

"Ya Rabbi, permudahkan urusan kami"