When telling the truth sucks, what other choices do I have?

Meanwhile, I'm flying to Jakarta this noon! Yabedabedooo *jumping jumping*
I havent pack my stuff and I'm still mentally not prepared for this trip. Oh and please pray that nothing worst happen :)

AFF 2010 : 1

Hebat gile laaa pemain Malaysia tadi :D BANGGA weeey! Semua macam pandai gelecek bola oh oh! Senang-senang je boleh lepas dari defenders pihak lawan (bukan satu je, sampai tiga kot!). *terpesona* Si Fahmi The Goalie pun berjaya tangkap bola banyak kali. Strikers and defenders memang mantap lah! Norshahrul, Mohd Safee, Ashari, semua awesome belaka. Teringin nak ada skill macam tu haha :p (waktu ni la baru nak kenal pemain negara sendiri kannn teeet!)

Masa masuk gawang Malaysia mati-mati ingat dah gol. Hampir berhenti jantung -_-" (ok. over sikit) tapi off side rupanya. Phew!

And the Indonesian team, they are really fast-runners. I've seen them play against Philipinnes' team and I can tell. Muhammad Nasuha tu kalau main fuh macam jago kampung bawak bola ke depan. Gonzales pulak macam setiap game, wajib la ada satu gol daripada beliau. Si Irfan Bachim pun hebat gile lah kalau bab-bab kejar bola. Dan si Okto, oh dia macam terror kontrol bola wey. I haven't see yet the talent of Bambang Pamungkas. Orang kata dia hebat woo. Ala-ala Indonesian football star la kan.

Buat rasa nak main bola pula hoho dan gollll!


But then the worst scenario is that few people yang suka nak provoke, saja nak naikkan kemarahan pihak lain. And this goes to both of the parties! No exception okay!

p/s : No provocation please :)

Dah laaama sangat tak keluar, just the three of us. I hardly can remember when was the last time. Tak pernah lengkap bertiga, biasanya berdua je kan hehe.

Thanks for the yummy date loves! :)

Sweet Thoughts

Simple thought always is the best :)

P/s : Malam ni pakai baju kuning eh?
Malaysia Boleh!
;)

Nakkk!

One of things is my wishlist is to have a music box or this;

Hooo yeah! *wink*


Oh, and btw, tetibe macam sangat semangat nak tengok AFF 2010
Malaysia vs. Indonesia!
Jom pergi Jakarta :p
Si cowok baju merah, ceweknya baju kuning!
Patriotik takkk?

We always think that people took us for granted, without realizing that we did that too.
The most important thing is, we always took what Allah gave to us for granted. Yet we always see ourselves as the one who is victimized.

I love to think a lot. And attending Agama class makes me think about things. Well, ya know?

P/s : Sorry the previous post tak pernah menuju kepada sesiapa. Umum. And kena batang hidung saya jugak at times, sebab kadang kita hanya jadi pihak yang bercerita, tanpa nak ambil kisah tentang cerita orang lain. Jangan terasa eh? Heee. Yon, yon.. *geleng kepala*

Listen :)

Everything is not all about you.

Don't be so dramatic.

Yes, you want to be heard out.

But sometimes, you've got to play the other part.

And when that time comes,

just listen.

Without interrupting.

That's more than enough :)

p/s : I wish to be with my family at this moment, because I still feel like crying and mourning.

I've been haunted by the past.
Your past.

Prayers for You

Today, I received an sms from my sis, informing me about our late greatgrandma who had passed away this noon. I was not feeling well today and I felt like skipping Agama class today, so I asked boyfie to send me home. It wasn't till I settled in my room that I read the sms. Shocked? Sure. Everytime I went to see my greatgrandma during holiday, I've already remind myself, that this might be the last time I'll be seeing her. The last chance to ask for forgiveness.

I've actually prepared myself for this. I've always thought that this day would come, sooner or later. That one day she'll be leaving us behind for good. But somehow I'm having trouble in accepting this for now. I just can't imagine how it would be when I go back home again. Do I have to remind myself that she won't be there no more? That I won't be able to see her anymore?

Because I see that wrinkled face everyday since I was a baby, and I listen to that same voice everyday, nagging us, preaching us about this and that. I was practically raised by her too.

And I see how the cloudy eyes gets blurry each day as a result of cataract that she can no longer see clearly and recognize us anymore, or how her hearing ability get worse by time that the only way to speak to her is by somewhat yelling at her, or how her memory quickly fade that you have to remind her who you are over and over again.

I miss how we would inform her about the prayer time, everytime azan. I miss turning her radio on so that she can listen to the Holy Al-Quran recitation, all day long. I miss her stories about our family. I miss taking her in my arms to help her climb the stairs, or sit beside her quietly, patiently answer her questions. I miss holding that small cold hands with mine.

I'm used to it, for more than 20 years. Not having her around anymore, that's what I'm not used to. Then how can I just simply absorb and register to myself that she's no longer here?

Lots and lots of prayers. Al fatihah.

Dec 5th, last year

Yes, i melted over it. I have to admit that getting a special poem from a special someone, I feel like a piece of chocolate bar under the bright hot rays of the sun. I wasn't sure at that time, as we knew that this relationship is not going to be that easy and smooth all the way (then again, which relationship does?).

I talked to a lot of people about it at that time, including my groupmates (circle of trust), my best friends and I did tell my mom somehow. And I received a lot of feedbacks. Some of which are very supportive yet few gave a solid NO. There's even a few people who kinda splurted that issue out of sudden which such cynicism. They have their own reasons I know, and that's all for my best.

It's been one year now. And I still can't say for sure what it's going to be between me and Mr. D. All I want to do is treasure this present moment together, take things as it is and be grateful.

Sorry for haven't been around when you guys need me :(
I've been too busy with myself that I missed so much on things that happened around..

I just can't wait for this weekend!

*sengihhhh kambing*

Natural Remedy

Rambut gugur macam daun-daun kering pada masa luruh

I'm going bald!
If this doesn't stop
T_T


I put aloe vera from our front yard on my scalp once. And I think it works for a while, until recently. Duhhh! Kalau nak cantik, nak itu ini mesti nak hasil yang cepat tanpa usaha berterusan kan?pffft. Nanti la, will try again later inshaAllah :)

Using aloe vera on the hair cleanses and conditions the scalp, helps balance the pH of the scalp, reduces oiliness, moisturizes dry hair and helps repair damaged hair. In addition, the gel from aloe's leaves can even stimulate hair growth in some cases, or at the least, prevent further balding. Simiar to its benefits for the skin, aloe vera softens, fortifies and rejuvenates the hair, while it flushes dirt, debris and bacteria from the scalp. It can be used on the hair in a variety of ways, though the most popular consist of purchasing or making your own aloe shampoos and conditioners, or applying pure aloe gel to the hair. - Ezine @rticle